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NOTE: Commentary is made as a private citizen and not as Regional Coordinator for Silent No More or any other ministries.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

My Hero - Update

Step three on the Blog Hop calls for us to provide a character sketch of our hero, be it real or one from a novel we've written.

I've not written a novel yet, in fact, I'm just now venturing into fiction, but even if I had, I would still select my true life hero...whose bed I'm sitting next to right now, waiting for Jesus to call her home... my mom.

Update:  My mom passed away peacefully yesterday, 2/12/14 with my dad and me at her side.  I Love You Mom, I miss you so very much but know I now have a special guardian angel to watch over me.  


This incredible woman is the epitome of selflessness and unconditional love.  She reached out to many people in need during her life, and sacrificed a great deal to make sure her family was happy and healthy. She stood by my dad throughout his military career, making a home wherever we were living, be it England, North Africa or stateside.

What truly makes her my hero is her steadfast faith in God and ability to forgive.  You see, she ended up with me.  In my late teens I turned away from God and ventured into a life of promiscuity and alcoholism for twenty-five years.  She suffered a great deal, having to deal with my antics and the cruel (albeit true) gossip of a small town.  Being a Christian woman with high morals and values, my actions devastated her but not once did she close the door, even when I demeaned and maligned her.

It took many years before I reconnected with God, sobered up and became the woman I am today and I credit God and my mom for that.  He never left me, nor did she.

As I sit here watching her, hours on end, I see a woman who not only gave me life, but saved it as well through her endless love and forgiveness.  She has definitely earned a special place in Heaven and all I can say is, " Mom, you fought the hard fight and were victorious.  Rest well - and know I love you more than words can express."









Monday, February 3, 2014

Everlasting Love

This weekend has been one of mixed emotions.  Being the daughter of Seahawks fans, yesterday's win brought high-fives with my dad as we watched the game together in the family room, a few steps away from Mom who started failing significantly on Friday.  Every few minutes one of us would sit next to her on the edge of the bed and describe what was going on.  Her eyes, closed most of the time, made it appear as if she was sleeping but we knew she would want to know how her "Hawks were doing.  With every update she responded with a weak smile and nod.

Mentally I've been preparing for my mom's passing but I constructed a wall around my heart, suppressing my emotions. A brick came loose yesterday and the wall collapsed.  I've never experienced this much pain before, but I was reminded of the Passion.  Jesus demonstrated his unconditional and everlasting love for us through enduring insufferable pain.  Having that wall crumble allowed me to finally feel the pain that shows the depth of love I have towards my mom, and for that I am truly grateful.





HAVE A BLESSED DAY