Forgiving is one thing ... being forgiven is another.
1 John 1:9 states, “If we acknowledge our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and cleanse us from every wrongdoing.” That verse assures me of God's forgiveness when I accept responsibility for my transgressions and repent. Unfortunately, doing the same in an earthly relationship does not always reap the same reward.
There are times when we unintentionally say or do something to a family member or friend that breeds anger, hurt or distrust. Because we cherish that relationship, we humbly ask for forgiveness, but our plea falls on deaf ears.
Not too long ago, I was trying to help out a friend with a situation, and because the relationship had always been open and honest, I felt comfortable using a little tough love, and in this case, it was necessary. Although the words said were out of love and concern, they were not received in the same manner. I knew deep down I said the right thing and for the right reason; however, holding on to the friendship was more important. I apologized and asked for forgiveness. What followed was a complete loss of contact, and the silence was deafening. I ended up shedding a river of tears, losing hours of sleep and turning into a self-loathing, muddled mess.
Through prayer and meditation it came to me: If a relationship is built on the foundation of mutual love, trust and respect, it will survive even the strongest storm. I hope that is the case and that time will heal the wounds.
Until then I pray:
Heavenly Father, I bring a heavy heart to You at the foot of the cross.
I know You can and will lighten it. Please give me the strength to turn my worries over to you and leave them there ... and place my trust
in You .... Your Will ... Your Way.