Doe
Zantamata once said, “Taking
time to do nothing often brings everything into perspective.” Those ten words best convey a recent cathartic
experience.
Last week, I spent some quality time
with my brother and his family and attended the wedding of my great niece. Months prior, I perused all the usual on-line
travel sites for flights to Oregon.
Reviewing the schedules, I shuddered
thinking about being on a jam-packed airplane with no leg room, having to share
an armrest and snacking on stale peanuts for the three and a half hour flight. I booked a flight, but only one way. Instead of flying home, I decided to do
something I’d never done before …. take Amtrak in a roomette.
All I can say about the “long way home,” is it was the most enlightening thirty-three
hours in my life. I shared meals in the
dining car with other passengers, but the majority of time was spent in my cozy
retreat, staring out the window and reflecting (along with taking a gazillion pictures and posting them on
Facebook).
The past few years had been full of
challenges, to say the least … the loss
of my parents, and a close friend, and a betrayal by someone I loved and
trusted. To combat the heart-break, I did what I always do … keep busy
to avoid feeling. Every once in a while, a few feelings would slip out, but I am
adept at plugging the dam before it collapses.
That game ended in the solitude of the
roomette. All the pent up emotions came
to the surface. Tears of grief,
righteous anger and anguish poured out. It was a baptism of sorts….my soul cleansed and my mind cleared. The veil of darkness lifted, and I was able to see the sun (or should I say “Son”). Denying the pain delayed my reaching acceptance
and seeing all the goodness and blessings in my life … but most of all obstructed my feeling the love and compassion of
God.
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